Perfectly Human

So, I know that I have lists to keep moving forward. I also have lists for several contingency plans, because… well, life is what it is and always has been. I’m struggling to get out of fight or flight. Come on PTSD, things are not the same as before. I’m relatively safe. Our child is safe. At this moment, we’re okay. I’m still frozen though, and I’m scared because if there’s no momentum I’ll fall. I can’t find the lists, even though they’re organized and easily accessible. My brain won’t function yet. I’m still frozen. Come on brain, relax please. Heart rate please lower, everything will be fine as long as we keep moving. Come on brain, please relax enough to let me function.